OK, today I am pondering my future in this hobby of ours. You see, over the weekend I have had discussions with my DH about scrapbooking. He is not supportive. Not supportive at all. Barely tolerates it. Can't believe that I spend my time on a hobby that just simply does not pay. Wants me to focus what little time I now have on something that is going to earn our family an income. And it's causing some pretty major stress in our relationship at the moment. Well, has been for some time.
And, while I can see his point, my predicament is that I love this outlet I have discovered for my creative side. I was always creative as a young person. However, I gradually discarded it all as I studied my way through University and climbed the corporate ladder. First the piano playing went. Then the dancing (did you know, I used to teach classical ballet and tap dancing?). Then the painting and drawing.
I don't want to completely give up my creative side! Not now that I've just started expressing it again.
But like all creative pursuits, scrapbooking takes time. Already, I have cut back. I don't scrap on weekends. I only scrap a couple of nights during the week. (The other nights I have been catching up on peoples' blogs - but he is even on to that now!) I only scrap during the day when he's not here. But, I'm starting to feel like I have to hide what I do. Like it's some guilty secret. Since turning my scrap room into a nursery, I have to continually tidy up after I've done any work. Which, you'll know, totally stifles your ability to create. Especially when you can only grab half an hour at a time.
I dunno. Maybe this is just a struggle we have to go through as we make the transition to a single family income. Maybe his concerns will abate as we learn to adjust. I already ensure that my scrapping doesn't cost our family budget. Any scrap purchases have to come from publication income. But, you'll all know that it's really impossible to make a wage from this kind of work. At best you cover your expenses (and here, I'm talking about more than supplies - I'm also talking the lighting, heating, petrol, etc. You know, the way you have to think when you're running a business). And maybe make a few hundred dollars a year.
Even when I was teaching - the pay was so low. And people would sign up for the class and then not bother to turn up. So, you'd prepare for a class thinking you were going to make x dollars, and once you'd realised that 3 or 4 of the registrants weren't going to attend, you'd just have to count your losses. When you factored in the time you spent creating the class project, writing the class notes, travelling too and from the venue to pick materials, preparing class kits, setting up the teaching area and cleaning up after, on top of actually teaching. It was a slave's wage. So going back to teaching isn't the answer either.
So, today, I'm confused. And unhappy. And wondering if others have had this problem. And what you've done about it. Please drop me a line and let me know. I'm really interested in your experiences.