My layout for Sketches Oz this month. Melissa Goodsell did a wonderful sketch. As per usual, I ended changing it around a bit, as I had a portrait oriented photo.
When I saw this photo, it reminded me of a dream I had a few years ago, before I had conceived Jamie. (Do you think I dream in black and white, lol? I could not, for trying, add any more colour to this. It had to be black and white. Even the photo is dark. Weird!)
The dream was one so vivid that it had stayed with me. It was one of those dreams where I woke up with the emotions still very much with me. A very powerful dream. And I've always wondered... So, when I took this photo, I had to go scrabbling through my old journals to find what I'd written at the time and this is it:
"14 April 2002. I was miserable. Depressed. Couldn't sleep. And then, when I did fall asleep, I dreamt I had a baby. He came and spoke to me. He brought me such comfort. I woke, sobbing with relief. My baby, he existed! 5 years later, I often wonder if that was you. If it was your beautiful soul speaking to me when I most needed it."
Honestly, I can't describe the feeling of release and utter comfort I had after waking from this dream. All my despair had evaporated. And I felt such confidence that this was my baby's soul speaking to me. Such utter calm and confidence. And happiness. Totally freaky. In my dream he (yes, the baby was a boy) was called Benjamin. When we came to naming Jamie, I had Benjamin as one of my choices, but couldn't bring myself to name him that. Just because the dream had been so strong.
Well, Phil just rang to say we have another open at 1pm. At the moment we're doing them by appointment, as we have booked an agent who has registered buyers. I think this is the last of them. Then we go to auction if the house has not been sold. I'll be glad to stop having opens for just one or two parties. It's driving me nuts all this cleaning! I have spent 8 hours in the last five days, just cleaning house. That was my scrapping time! Needless to say, I'm way behind with my scrapping goals.
Well, enough complaining, I have two and a quarter hours to clean the house.
Bye
Kathie
6 comments:
I love your LO Kathie- I have been over to Sketches Oz to check it out - as well as the other LOs! Melissa's sketch is great- I can't wait to scrap it myself!
I also wish your house would sell- LOL- I feel tired reading about all your cleaning!!! :) Your house looks beautiful- I'm sure it will be snapped up soon!
Well done on your CK LOs - my copy hasn't arrived yet but I'll check them out when it does!
Have a great day!
ITs a gorgeous LO Kathie....and is that a flower I see...snicker, snicker ;)
Good luck with the open this afternoon.
Nic xxx
Soooo vil putzen...ächz...du Arme! Ich muß die Woche aber auch noch eine Grundreinigung hier machen. Es ist die letzte Zeit so viel liegen geblieben. Nächste Woche geht es los in den Urlaub, da möchte ich alles schön haben.
Das Layout ist wunderschön - besonders die Geschichte dazu.
Wenn ich es richtig verstanden habe, dann verkauft ihr ein Haus? Viel Glück jedenfalls!
Kathie this is a gorgeous layout, and what a remarkable dream you had. I have no doubt after reading this that it was Jamie...nothing like a bond between a mother and child. Do you believe in past lives? Maybe Benjamin is the name Jamie had last time you two were together?
Megan xx
love your layout Kathie. Beautiful story behind it too. I had a similar dream, just before I found out I was pregnant with Liam.
Good luck with the cleaning/selling. Your house looks so beautiful after all the hard work you've put in to it, I'm amazed you still want to sell :)
xx k
Hi Kathie,
I love your LO for Sketches Oz and I love your journallin. How powerful and what an amazing thing to put in your DS's LO. Something I think he will certainly treasure.
It's funny but when my DS#1 was only little he told me that he picked me to be his mum...that was a kinda WOW moment too :)
Take care
Tammy
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