I'm sorry! It's been a very quick week. Or at least it feels it. It has flown by. And I honestly do not know what I've done, lol. I know I have been run down. And sick. And I was so tired. A couple of nights of decent sleep have revived me though.
But the tiredness, the sickness, the general "not feeling to good with the world" has had me thinking. About life in general. Where I'm heading. What I'm doing. What I want. Etc. Etc.
One of the things that I found myself contemplating was this blog. I was disturbed to see the re-establishment of the aussie smack blog. I know I should not have gone and read it. I'm annoyed at myself. But I did. And it forced me to question a few things. Some of the comments are just plain mean. And generalising.
* Published scrappers keep blogs just to stoke their egos, apparently. "Do I?" I wondered?
* People don't like "seeing the same old faces over and over again in the magazines". "Are people tired of my work?" I asked.
* Someone complained about the scrappers who appear multiple times in the CK Aussie Reader Gallery. I am about to. In fact the other day I had six LOs accepted for the Gallery. "Will people complain?" I questioned.
I also read about a website where creeps are taking childrens' photos off the internet and using them to create bogus "profiles" used, apparently, by peodophiles. "Am I putting Jamie at risk by having his photos and information up on the internet?" I asked myself.
Yes, I've been thinking too much maybe. That's what I do. I'm a thinker. A worrier.
I've been worrying. And not blogging.
And before you go and misinterpret me, no, I don't think that any of the comments on the smack blog were directed at me. I don't have that sort of profile. I'm just one of many scrappers who are published regularly but who don't appear on most people's radar. I'm not a drama queen. I'm not an attention seeker. I'm relatively unknown. What reputation I have is based on my work. And that's how I like it, to be honest.
But nevertheless, I have been re-evaluating.
What purpose does this blog serve? Is it still relevant? It used to inform friends and family about Jamie, just after he was born, when I was in that sleep deprived early adjustment period and couldn't get out or to a telephone. I'm not in that situtation now. If I care to, I can easily pick up the 'phone and give a friend an update.
What has developed, though, is a dialogue by which I connect with you. A two-way dialogue. Without this blog I would miss each and every one of you who visit and comment. I look forward to your comments. I keep up with what you and your families are up to by this cyber-medium. I would miss that.
I could password protect my blog. But, you see, I get more people visiting here than commenting. I get over a thousand visits every month. I have no idea who the majority of the people passing through are. I'm sure that most of you wouldn't email me to get a password. And, you know what? I don't want you to have to. I'm glad you're here. I'm glad you pop past every now and then. I don't want to put up barriers.
Every now and then someone new pops their head up to say hello and I'm so happy to see you! Yes, I'm not ready to give up my cyber-buddies just because I've gotten offended at a few people's hatefulness.
So, I came to the decision that if people are passing through who are going to feel negative about what I write, then so be it. The benefits outweigh the negatives.
However, what you will see over the next few months though, is less detail about Jamie. After all, he is no longer a baby. He will be 2 in less than a month. Eeek, yes, two!! When did that happen? So I will give him a bit more privacy.
Also, you'll notice that photos will now be watermarked to prevent their misuse. Please don't misinterpret. I do not consider myself a "photographer" by any stretch of the imagination, lol. But I don't want the risk of perverts picking up my photos and plonking them down somewhere in cyberspace where they shouldn't be.
Well, there. I've gotten it off my chest. If you're still with me, well done :)
Until next time.
Have a great weekend. Apparently we have 35 degrees forecast for Sunday down here. Woohoo! I hope the airconditioner in the new house works, lol.