We had two pieces of news yesterday. Actually, it was a very busy day, yesterday. Just by the by, we also caught up with an old uni friend who had been living in Thailand for the last ten or so years. She and I shared houses together in our early twenties, and it was so wonderful to see her and catch up. Isn't it wonderful how intervening time just evaporates when you see an old friend?
But I digress. Our news. Yes. Old. I feel old today. Old. Old. Old. Last night we had a follow up visit at the IVF clinic to get the blood test results and talk about what sort of treatment might be available to us. And, in a word, there is minimal chance of success. Well, that's four words, but you get the message.
We have a less than 5% chance of success (with an emphasis on the LESS, sob) if we go through IVF. And, if we did have success (a miracle?) then we would have to deal with the worry about the increased risk of genetic abnormalities, which is a significant risk at our age. I have old eggs, you see, and there was much discussion about egg "quality". Omlette anyone?
So, today I am feeling a little less like me and more like someone's grandmother. Which, let's face it, at 44 I could well have been, if circumstances had've been different. And, today, oh how I wish that they had. But, there you go. No point wishing for the moon.
So, I have this continual loop going on in my head today. Should we? Shouldn't we? Is it crazy to want to be a mum again at 44? Maybe it's time to start acting my age. Maybe I need to go and clear out those cupboards full of baby clothes and toys :(.
Aaaah. Sigh. At the end of the day, I have a lovely little life. There will always be room for one more in our family, yes, but we might have to make do with a cat.
Aaaah. Sigh. ...... moving on....
On a more positive note, our good news of the day was just simply BRILLIANT news. The best ever!
Jamie's speech pathologist is ecstatic at his progress. At yesterday's session she kept looking at me with these raised, WTF? eyebrows. Because our boy has made the most outstanding progress. In the last six weeks he has mastered "p", "f", "s", "h", "t", "d". Wow! WTG Jamie!
Yesterday our speechie had to completely rewrite his program, because he has advanced so significantly. We have another session in two weeks' time and then we will have a month without sessions so Jamie can consolidate his progress (and she can have a month overseas, lol) and then she will re-evaluate him. There are a few things that we still have to work on, but she's suggesting that he may show up as being pretty much age appropriate at the re-evaluation!
What? Say that again? I almost fell off my chair! This is the same child who, four weeks ago she was saying would need intensive speech therapy until at least school age. Now she is saying that he might only need ad-hoc sessions to deal with any minor delays/problems that he has with normal speech development. Pinch me, I'm dreaming!
I am so happy for my little boy. He is pretty proud of himself too.
Hope you have had a good week. I have been doing some creating. Nothing that's finished to show yet. But it feels nice to have some creative mojo again.
Talk soon.
Kathie