Whew, it's HOT today. 39 degrees or something? We've been out all day and only just got home to the cool of the airconditioner. And I tell ya, I'm not moving for the rest of the day!
Here's my photo for day 41:
As part of looking after myself this year, I have started seeing a naturopath. And I am currently taking a range of health supplements. Some heavy duty multi-vitamins to help with my sluggish energy levels.
I also had a whole battery of blood tests done. Basically I am a healthy chook - thyroid functioning could be a bit better, but my cholesterol, iron levels, white blood cell counts etc. etc are all very healthy. My fertility hormones are abysmal though - definitely perimenopause. Sigh. My dream of two children playing in the backyard is definitely over. It's so hard to let go though. Harder than I ever thought it would be.
But, this is part of me taking control of my life; part of me stopping marking time; part of making something else than having a baby the focus, when that has been so much the focus of my life for the last 2 and a half years. I refuse to just drift for another year. I am making new goals.
We also talked diet today, and I realised today how rigid I am with my eating - what I eat and what I don't eat. Trying to substitute some of my less healthy food snacks for healthier alternatives that will increase my energy levels is going to be a bit more difficult than I would have anticipated. I could feel my face growing more and more sour as the naturopath talked to me about alternatives, lol. Rice crackers with hommus and bean sprouts. Or a small tin of salmon.... For an afternoon snack? For goodness sake! Each to their own. But, personally.... blergh.
I'm turning into a grumpy old woman I told her, when she noticed. Blame it on perimenopause! ;)